Greetings All ~
The tension of selling my house and finding another is over. I have plenty of time to sort, pack and move—more than enough time.
I could easily get it all done by the closing dates for both the sale and purchase of each place. Sign the papers, move the money around, fill up a truck with stuff and bring it to the new place.
But I'm tuning-in to an old pattern. How is it that I don't take advantage of time? Or, more like, Why is it I squander time?
It reminds me of 'cramming' in college. Each semester we'd get our syllabus and schedule for each class. Each semester I would vow to stick to a study plan, carefully map it out and not follow it. The result was a lot of making up for lost study time. End-of-course papers came due, which could have been started much earlier. Exams needed to be studied for; could have been prepared for all along. Instead, I left it to the end, time after time. There was a certain excitement to staying up three nights in a row, hopped on my best friend's diet pills, a wonderful pharmaceutical amphetamine. And, yeah, the drug made it fun and even doable. But it was the deadline, the drama of the whole thing. That's what made it really appealing.
Humans have created deadlines, time-oriented targets or goals:
~Some targets are partially based on biological considerations, like having a baby, expected dwindling physical capabilities, or the average life span (the Body).
~Graduations, retirements, retirement funds; these are societal expectations placed on time and space (the Mind).
~Some are based on an individual's karma, preternatural abilities and predilections (the Spirit).
~And there's something else here. We're hardwired for a game. That feeling of accomplishment, of expansion, is so great, we set ourselves up to play again and again. Got the mortgage paid off? Great! Let's buy a vacation home now.That'sthe drama.
The blend of these factors is ever-changing; it's based on finance, family, desire, need, health and level of energy.
As a human and a yogi, how do I want to ration Time? Am I still attached to drama? Do I go for the slow drip of dopamine or the wild rush of adrenaline? My youthful mind is excited by it. My mature mind is bored with it. Knowing what I know, deadlines don't have to be dramatic.
Here's a here's a link to my song Brand New Places, available on my first album "Lila: At Play with God."
Please let me know how you're doing.
I learn so much from you.
All Good Things,
Vicky Jap Dharam Rose